While I don't think anyone can accurately describe this I need to relate what I have experienced. I have lived a terrible life and deserve NOTHING but contempt from God. Over the years I have done everything within my flesh to try and get Him to turn His face from me. Instead he repeatedly shows me his favor and demonstrates his love for me.
During the past several months I allowed Satan to interfere in my life and he clearly made me think that what I was doing was justified. During that time I lost many of the things I held most dear. Through the refining fire I am being presented with a new and wonderful opportunity to let God have his way in my life. I have chosen to give up any of my own will and not retaliate against the untruths that are being used against me and rest in the fact that God will deal with all of that in His own time.
God is awesome!
